Tired.

'Tired' is a word used often over and over again over things that are constantly troubling your mind or a situation that comes up more frequently than not or the wish to forget and curl up into a ball of warm being underneath piles of blankets. I prefer to choose the latter as if it was depicted in a mental image, it would look like this:

But unfortunately, given that it is depicted rather depressingly, it would most likely look like this:

And I have corrected your imagery of me at the current moment; plus minus with a keyboard in my hand since I am blogging it out t. We shall let that slide for now.

The mind often thinks of the most irrelevant relevant things during odd hours; in my case, right during the moments when i do literally feel tired (used in the correct way) and the only thing keeping me awake is either the sudden rapid working hours of the cookie factory/brain or inspirations at batshit hour. Dreams often are vivid when the heart cries silently without tears, scared of any unintentional eavesdropping ears hearing you sob with a clogged nose. Absolutely not charming or even cute, for you are at your lowest. To be reminded that you are a victim of self-blame fired up by the blame of others is a hard task to handle for anyone of that matter as everyone has a sense of self-worth big or small. But the mind proves you wrong and you continue to punch yourself in the gut out of the reason that might be your own self-esteem or even the fact that you stopped maintaining and putting trust in yourself to continue putting up that strong facade to get you through the day. Questioning yourself over and over to the point that you have unlocked the achievement of tiring yourself out all on your own. Cry. Repeat steps over and over. Or maybe not.

Spent the night watching "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" with dearest sir awsmsauce and i'll have to admit that if I were to watch it last year, it would've been my favourite movie of the year but I digress considering it was a great movie to start off the year with especially sharing the moment of watching it with someone dear to you.

There's always a silver lining to everything. I'll have to open my eyes; look through and thorough.

In regards to everything else, close to doomsday but also close to freedom.