Anyways, 2011 is coming to an end in about 1 more hour or so; so i might as well make a final entry before coming into 2012. I mean, it's a big year what with the apocalypse coming closer and we're all clinging onto our dear lives. I'm kidding, i don't believe in the 2012 world end issue.
As i write this equipped with easy-listening music that's helping me to remember back wonderful memories i've made in the year 2011, i'm also reminded of those bitter moments that pretty much slapped bullshit onto my face so hard that i could fall onto the ground and never get up ever again.
I might as well be depressed my whole life and succumb to my old stupid teenage years where pain was inflicted as a form of happy sensation.
But of course, everything has its ups and downs. Like elevators, or see-saws, or anything else that goes up and down i can't think of any at the moment. You get my point.
Honestly i can't remember much what has specifically happened in 2011 considering most of it ended up being bitter as hell that the human mind usually refuses to remember shitty things that has once or twice fucked them over, leaving us to curl up in our own walls of insecurity and cry like a beaten up child.
2011 was tiring. Hectic? Depressing. Sad. yet in a way, it was a crucial point in my life where i actually punched myself in the gut, telling myself to be better. To never give up even if it involves lives(in this case, battling/controlling the feelings i have regarding the death/loss of someone close), to always look on the brighter side of life. To keep myself composed despite wanting to fall onto my knees and sob my life away like a failure. Regrets? A lot, but am i supposed to dwell on regrets even?
Right now, typing this i feel my face forming a frown rather than a smile as proof that i'm getting sick and tired of so many things happening around me. The whole kicking each other in the rear and thinking that we did nothing wrong? That's shit. That's low. That's scum.
People change, people learn new things, people leave other people, people find new people. That happens.
That is inevitable.
So, in the year 2012, i'm still not giving up.
I'll still be the person i'll forever be, improved and still trying to learn the quirks of life.
I'll still be here to rant out things on this blog of mine(hopefully i'll blog more in the coming year)
I'll still be kicking ass no matter what kind of hardship i'll be going through.
I'll still be here with open arms.
I'll try my best to move on from the loop holes i've gotten myself into.
Bring it on, 2012.
And i hope you'll be kicking ass as well, blog reader. Whoever you are.
Let's do our best and be better people.
To my dearest friend who've been asking me to blog since forever,
You've been my dearest most important person since we've met, and i hope that'll stay forever.
I love you lots, my gebu-buddy.
Please make time for me so that we can hang out next year or i'll drag you out by force.