It is undeniably sad when people say that i am sad because i am not grateful of the things in my life when in fact, i have been so grateful each and every day.
And that the sad reality is that they are the ones who have not been grateful.
Nobody wants to be sad, nobody chooses to be depressed.
People expect me to be strong, to be able to take care of them, to cater to their every need, to ask them "are you ok?" and hold their hand through everything, etc. I am glad and happy to do all of that for them.
But i also understand that i cannot expect or wish for them to do the same because as much as you can say with words that you care for me, you were not there when i needed you.
I try not to feel disappointed, i try to understand instead.
And it's the process of understanding, it is what makes me depressed and sad.
At the end of the day, i am still going to be there to care for each and every one of you. Because it is what i can do and it is what you expect me to.
